Once again a random blog....probably thats what blogging is for!
Fears..a million fears chasing me day in day out and I psychologically keep succumbing to it and the dimensions of my life get continuously clipped to 1.
I feel tired of running..have been feeling so for the last 2 years...I seemed to have burnt out totally running this rat race of academics for survival.
It probably is just not my cup of tea.
These days the race has just gotten a lot more tougher...to ensure my existence in DTP (Department of Theoretical Physics) in TIFR. I am finding it getting exponentially tougher for me to survive here. The courses are so very boring and so uninteresting and the teaching standards are so very bad that my enthusiasm and the energy to work for the courses has crashed to almost nothingness.
I wonder how many more days I shall be able to keep dragging myself through this and keep getting hit at my weaknesses...somehow the entire situation feels like continuously hitting my head against a rock wall trying to break it. The courses keep trying me and testing me at things which either I can't do or in things that I feel least interested.
I wonder if I could get away from all this and be able to pursue science the way I want to. wonder how..and i keep wondering.
Things are just so messed up and depressing and frustrating. And I feel myself decaying into oblivion.
Probably these are my last few days in DTP and probably the end of the road is very near.
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